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Tuesday, April 30, 2013, 3:16 PM
the butterfly project
a butterfly named jem
Sunday, April 28, 2013, 2:16 AM
wipe my tears they endlessly falli plead to the lord to drown me in them
i dont want to be here
dad's advice is still the best
hit a vein my life i so despise shall crumble
i dont want to be here
heat in liquid what do they stand for
my anger? my sorrow?
take them away be gone
i dont want to be here
2:01 AM
sourlava
streams
we both know I started it
Thursday, April 25, 2013, 7:11 PM
the road back was one of the most emotional ones I ever hadto think that someone, a complete stranger, accepts you as a body, scarred, broken, tortured - yet still holds you by the brittle bones
the worse part was struggling to keep the tears in - my sockets were raging full sour heat. I bite my lips. How am I supposed to tell you? I couldn't help but feel extreme guilt,
that at the back of my mind
I really wished it was another particular someone holding me.
12:22 AM
spiral to death
She still haunts me, creeps up as silently as the first day we met.
Monday, April 22, 2013, 5:43 PM
maybe not
I wish I could
But where do I gather such strength
to fearlessly love again?
Saturday, April 20, 2013, 4:53 AM
before i head to slumberi just want you to know
your patience, a work of wonder
am i really worth your go?
eyes shut into a world of darkness
my head goes pounding, enveloped in nothing but noises
low voices they shout, who are they?
not for long - they shut me down with their whispers
is it mia thats calling, far from deep within?
digging up a piece of me where no one's ever been..
leave me alone whoever you are, the prisoners of my head, should i beg for some of you, to go to my heart instead?
people question, "head or heart?" i laugh blankly n stare
for in my head i ask myself "is there even a heart down there?"
Friday, April 19, 2013, 1:16 PM
cant believe i just broke down infront of my dad like thattoo much on my head for me to handle and i cant turn to anyone
i have guilt seeping through my bones, into every inch of me. I just want to be good enough.
Wednesday, April 17, 2013, 2:01 AM
fuck off mia
12:31 AM
well fuckcoz no one else knows how to calm me down
but one
but guess what
he's gone
thats pretty messed up
Tuesday, April 16, 2013, 1:57 PM
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Saturday, April 13, 2013, 1:46 AM
what the fuck do u think ure doingwhat exactly, r u trying to do
Friday, April 12, 2013, 2:42 AM
walking with a bull
gentle yet a beastwarmth from a roar
sheltered but by horns
a crippling shadow crawls
long journey far ahead
quick sand backs me up instead
what is it like walking, with a bull?
fearsome, a challenge, fun or boo?
Thursday, April 11, 2013, 10:37 PM
tonight i paint with an empty heart..actually no tonight im painting topless with my long sleeve tied to my neck like a cloak
COZ I CAN
1:03 AM
i wish i could listen to my heart more often but its always screwing the fuck up
or is the other way round
am i listening to my head too much
am i disregarding myself too much
do i deprive myself of love too much
do i lack too much of empathy
GOD DAMN IT GIVE ME SOMETHING TO FEEL FOR FUCK'S SAKE - ANYTHING BUT FRUSTRATION OVER HOW HEARTLESS I AM
BLESS ME WITH A HEART GVE ME FEELINGS MAKE ME SAD MAKE ME WANT TO CRY I CANT FUCKING CRY WHAT THE FUCK AM I
ive lost my heart
Wednesday, April 10, 2013, 11:56 PM
and when the earth fades, falls from my eyesyou stand before me, and i know, you love me
Monday, April 8, 2013, 12:59 PM
i wont be taking a step down you have your ways and i have mine
Saturday, April 6, 2013, 9:09 PM
glad i have u 
Friday, April 5, 2013, 12:02 AM
coffee
when i strip down bare naked / face heart and soulu stand before me / ready to go
a roaring silence / no output
i giggle at my ignorance / im lagging a foot
when the night ends / when its time again
i hear your soft whisper / feel your warm hands
been weeks but still i reach out at night / yes, i do and i laugh at my plight
sometimes i wonder for whom do i fight / i search and yearn yet its nowhere in sight
been weeks but still i keep my cool / been weeks but still i hop the fool / been weeks but still i hope its true / no one gets how it brews down to you
Wednesday, April 3, 2013, 10:14 AM
Only heaven knows
My friends keep telling me that if you really love her / you've got to set her free / and if she returns in time / I'll know she's mineBut tell me where do I start / it's breaking my heart / I dont wanna let er go